Wonderings of an Aimless Mind
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
I'm here!
Just met up with Rosario today and I must say I really did miss her... Paano ba naman, we're both based here in Manila but the last time I saw her was last August to celebrate her birthday. And come to think of it, I saw Arbern on September... Labo noh?
One topic we talked about is our HS upcoming reunion... Well, just told her that I'll definitely not be going to that "thing". Why? What's the use? The only person I probably would want to see there is her. So I might as well just meet up with her and have our loooong talks about life in private, without somebody overhearing what I have and want to say. Besides, I'm not interest with my other HS classmates lives after HS. Why? Because I'm just not interested. Yeah, I know, I'm becoming apathetic again. Must be because of our other topic earlier - Bonnie. I actually do not care anymore... I've been hurt, she was also hurt and I don't think we would ever become friends again. As I've told Rosario, we definitely could be civil towards one another but be close friends as before? I don't think so. Not in this lifetime. Maybe in another lifetime, when we would both have the chance to think things over before saying - or in this case writing anything - it to the other person. As I've written before, I'm over it. I have managed to move on. I do not want to think about it anymore. I just hope... Never mind... It's all in the past and we all know that we could never ever erase what had happened already.
We also had the chance to talk about our respective relationships... They just celebrated their 2 year anniversary while we are nearing our 5 year mark... Are we happy? I would like to think so... Why am I not sure you ask? I also do not know. But don't take my word on this... I'm just feeling a little low (again). Maybe, this is just an end result of the Christmas season. Or maybe I'm just feeling something (instinct) that I just cannot quite understand. Is it a sign of things to come or am I being paranoid (AGAIN)? I probably need help assessing these feelings 'coz I'm getting nowhere with them. Or maybe, just maybe, I only need to sleep on this.
Let's see... New Year's comin'. Hopefully, I'll get lucky this time and never suffer from bouts of paranoia all through out the coming year. I'm keepin' my fingers crossed on this...
One topic we talked about is our HS upcoming reunion... Well, just told her that I'll definitely not be going to that "thing". Why? What's the use? The only person I probably would want to see there is her. So I might as well just meet up with her and have our loooong talks about life in private, without somebody overhearing what I have and want to say. Besides, I'm not interest with my other HS classmates lives after HS. Why? Because I'm just not interested. Yeah, I know, I'm becoming apathetic again. Must be because of our other topic earlier - Bonnie. I actually do not care anymore... I've been hurt, she was also hurt and I don't think we would ever become friends again. As I've told Rosario, we definitely could be civil towards one another but be close friends as before? I don't think so. Not in this lifetime. Maybe in another lifetime, when we would both have the chance to think things over before saying - or in this case writing anything - it to the other person. As I've written before, I'm over it. I have managed to move on. I do not want to think about it anymore. I just hope... Never mind... It's all in the past and we all know that we could never ever erase what had happened already.
We also had the chance to talk about our respective relationships... They just celebrated their 2 year anniversary while we are nearing our 5 year mark... Are we happy? I would like to think so... Why am I not sure you ask? I also do not know. But don't take my word on this... I'm just feeling a little low (again). Maybe, this is just an end result of the Christmas season. Or maybe I'm just feeling something (instinct) that I just cannot quite understand. Is it a sign of things to come or am I being paranoid (AGAIN)? I probably need help assessing these feelings 'coz I'm getting nowhere with them. Or maybe, just maybe, I only need to sleep on this.
Let's see... New Year's comin'. Hopefully, I'll get lucky this time and never suffer from bouts of paranoia all through out the coming year. I'm keepin' my fingers crossed on this...
lizzieloves, 9:49:00 PM
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Sunday, December 26, 2004
I Feel...
lizzieloves, 1:44:00 AM
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I Need This...
lizzieloves, 1:18:00 AM
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Saturday, December 25, 2004
Teary-Eyed on Christmas Eve
This song never fails to make me cry...
GROWN-UP CHRISTMAS LIST
(Foster / Thompson / Jenner)
Amy Grant - 1992
Do you remember me?
I sat upon your knee.
I wrote to you with childhood fantasies.
Well, I'm all grown up now,
But still need help somehow. I
'm not a child but my heart still can dream.
So here's my lifelong wish,
My grown-up christmas list,
Not for myself, but for a world in need:
No more lives torn apart,
And wars would never start,
And time would heal all hearts.
Ev'ry one would have a friend,
That right would always win,
And love would never end:
This is my grown-up christmas list...
As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely wrapped beneath the tree.
Well, heaven surely knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal a hurting human soul.
No more lives torn apart,
And wars would never start,
And time would heal all hearts.
Ev'ry one would have a friend,
That right would always win,
And love would never end:
This is my grown-up christmas list...
What is this illusion called the innocence of youth?
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth!
There'd be...
No more lives torn apart,
And wars would never start,
And time would heal all hearts.
Ev'ry one would have a friend,
That right would always win,
And love would never end:
This is my grown-up christmas list, T
his is my only lifelong wish,
This is my Grown-up Christmas List!
GROWN-UP CHRISTMAS LIST
(Foster / Thompson / Jenner)
Amy Grant - 1992
Do you remember me?
I sat upon your knee.
I wrote to you with childhood fantasies.
Well, I'm all grown up now,
But still need help somehow. I
'm not a child but my heart still can dream.
So here's my lifelong wish,
My grown-up christmas list,
Not for myself, but for a world in need:
No more lives torn apart,
And wars would never start,
And time would heal all hearts.
Ev'ry one would have a friend,
That right would always win,
And love would never end:
This is my grown-up christmas list...
As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely wrapped beneath the tree.
Well, heaven surely knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal a hurting human soul.
No more lives torn apart,
And wars would never start,
And time would heal all hearts.
Ev'ry one would have a friend,
That right would always win,
And love would never end:
This is my grown-up christmas list...
What is this illusion called the innocence of youth?
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth!
There'd be...
No more lives torn apart,
And wars would never start,
And time would heal all hearts.
Ev'ry one would have a friend,
That right would always win,
And love would never end:
This is my grown-up christmas list, T
his is my only lifelong wish,
This is my Grown-up Christmas List!
lizzieloves, 1:17:00 AM
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Friday, December 24, 2004
Goodbyes
It's Christmas eve and I'm at work... Not that I am complaining, it's just that tradition dictates that you're supposed to be with your family at this time of the year. Actually, for me it's not that bad but then again I'm sad because of a different reason. 'Coz ever since I learned months ago that I would be working on Christmas and New Year's day, I made myself accept that fact.
I have only known this girl for only a short time... Actually, we just became close when we kinda shared the same shift and that was only about 3 or 4 months ago. I always say that she's the cry baby, but why am I feeling the urge to cry right now? I just wish that we were given more time to be explore our friendship... I also wish that I could put into writing what I am currently feeling right now but I can't. I'll probably write about this in the future but not today.
All I can say is... Just be happy my dear friend and always remember that once in our lives our paths have crossed and I'll never ever forget that.
I have only known this girl for only a short time... Actually, we just became close when we kinda shared the same shift and that was only about 3 or 4 months ago. I always say that she's the cry baby, but why am I feeling the urge to cry right now? I just wish that we were given more time to be explore our friendship... I also wish that I could put into writing what I am currently feeling right now but I can't. I'll probably write about this in the future but not today.
All I can say is... Just be happy my dear friend and always remember that once in our lives our paths have crossed and I'll never ever forget that.
lizzieloves, 9:35:00 PM
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MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
I WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH ME...
lizzieloves, 6:02:00 AM
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The OTHER Point of View
All I could say is this: I will now think twice before accusing Arbern of straying...
lizzieloves, 12:25:00 AM
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Monday, December 20, 2004
We won!!!
We (Cai and me) attended our Christmas party in Shang and guess what? We actually won the grand prize!!! Why we? Well, Cai had to leave early 'coz she has to go to work so she left her raffle ticket with moi. So what I did was just put those tickets in bag, not looking at them anymore 'coz I know that I do not have any luck with raffle draws. And besides, there are about 300 or more people there so just do the math right? But thank GOD we won!!!
So what are we gonna with the prizes? Well, we've decided to just sell them and then split the money. Good enough right? This actually means more money for gifts and of course for SHOPPING and Timezone!!! Yeah!!!
So what are we gonna with the prizes? Well, we've decided to just sell them and then split the money. Good enough right? This actually means more money for gifts and of course for SHOPPING and Timezone!!! Yeah!!!
lizzieloves, 3:34:00 AM
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Saturday, December 18, 2004
HMMM...
you are The Big Mac. You have your own traditional
ways of doing things and you stick by them.
Which McDonalds Product are you?
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lizzieloves, 2:48:00 AM
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Thursday, December 09, 2004
Gifts for this season
What to give for Christmas? This question had been going around in my mind this past few weeks. I have 10 godchildren and at least 15 people that I would want to give a gift this coming season. But the question is, what should I give them? For the godchildren, maybe I'm just gonna them some cash or if by magic I'll have some time to go shopping a little token to remember me by. I know that I've been "hiding" from them for two Christmases already... (bad Ninang huh?) but I intend to make up for that this time. As for friends, it's kinda hard thinking of gifts for them because it should be something that they would want but at the same time remind them of moi. Hmmm, tough decisions coming up for me when I do get to visit the mall to do some shopping. At least I do get to go the mall with a valid excuse this time.
lizzieloves, 11:19:00 PM
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One Fine Sunday Morning
I don't know but it's kinda getting a habit for us (me and Cai) to wait for Glorietta to open on Sundays. Cai actually re-introduced me to an old friend - TIMEZONE! It's so fun going there and just shooting like crazy at zombies while we swipe and swipe and swipe our timezone cards to finish the game in vain.
Here are some pics we took on our last "outing" there with Ace.
Here are some pics we took on our last "outing" there with Ace.
lizzieloves, 10:55:00 PM
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Tuesday, December 07, 2004
Strawberry Float!
Yum! I really love strawberry float, it's one of my fave drinks in the whole wide world! In fact I'm drinking one right now while working on this entry...
Anyways, I've been thinking about random things lately. Don't wanna know if this is a good thing or a bad thing for my state of mind. At least, I've found out some answers about some questions that have been troubling me for the past years. I've also accepted that there really are some things that I could never ever have control over with. But the best part is, I'm slowly getting to know myself all over again. My strengths and my weaknesses. My likes and dislikes.
I know that I could never be perfect... well, nobody is. So might as well go with what I want, do things that will make me happy. Maybe it's time that I start thinking about myself first for a change. I'm so tired of thinking about what will happen after I do things my way, so if other people do not approve of what I'm doing, to heck with them. It's my life after all, right?! So what if I'm getting a bit bitchy these days? And, so what if I'm getting a bit pathetic when it comes to my lovelife?! I'm just being me... does anybody have a problem with that?
Anyways, I've been thinking about random things lately. Don't wanna know if this is a good thing or a bad thing for my state of mind. At least, I've found out some answers about some questions that have been troubling me for the past years. I've also accepted that there really are some things that I could never ever have control over with. But the best part is, I'm slowly getting to know myself all over again. My strengths and my weaknesses. My likes and dislikes.
I know that I could never be perfect... well, nobody is. So might as well go with what I want, do things that will make me happy. Maybe it's time that I start thinking about myself first for a change. I'm so tired of thinking about what will happen after I do things my way, so if other people do not approve of what I'm doing, to heck with them. It's my life after all, right?! So what if I'm getting a bit bitchy these days? And, so what if I'm getting a bit pathetic when it comes to my lovelife?! I'm just being me... does anybody have a problem with that?
lizzieloves, 10:22:00 PM
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Friday, December 03, 2004
What I want for Christmas
Hmmm... What do I want for Christmas? Let me think, will yah?
1. A new cellphone, preferably a Nokia 7610.
2. A new watch.
3. A digital camera.
4. A gift certificate for a full body massage and scrub.
5. A whole week of doing nothing - preferably somewhere near this place:
... to be continued.
lizzieloves, 2:37:00 AM
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