Wonderings of an Aimless Mind
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
I'm here!
Just met up with Rosario today and I must say I really did miss her... Paano ba naman, we're both based here in Manila but the last time I saw her was last August to celebrate her birthday. And come to think of it, I saw Arbern on September... Labo noh?
One topic we talked about is our HS upcoming reunion... Well, just told her that I'll definitely not be going to that "thing". Why? What's the use? The only person I probably would want to see there is her. So I might as well just meet up with her and have our loooong talks about life in private, without somebody overhearing what I have and want to say. Besides, I'm not interest with my other HS classmates lives after HS. Why? Because I'm just not interested. Yeah, I know, I'm becoming apathetic again. Must be because of our other topic earlier - Bonnie. I actually do not care anymore... I've been hurt, she was also hurt and I don't think we would ever become friends again. As I've told Rosario, we definitely could be civil towards one another but be close friends as before? I don't think so. Not in this lifetime. Maybe in another lifetime, when we would both have the chance to think things over before saying - or in this case writing anything - it to the other person. As I've written before, I'm over it. I have managed to move on. I do not want to think about it anymore. I just hope... Never mind... It's all in the past and we all know that we could never ever erase what had happened already.
We also had the chance to talk about our respective relationships... They just celebrated their 2 year anniversary while we are nearing our 5 year mark... Are we happy? I would like to think so... Why am I not sure you ask? I also do not know. But don't take my word on this... I'm just feeling a little low (again). Maybe, this is just an end result of the Christmas season. Or maybe I'm just feeling something (instinct) that I just cannot quite understand. Is it a sign of things to come or am I being paranoid (AGAIN)? I probably need help assessing these feelings 'coz I'm getting nowhere with them. Or maybe, just maybe, I only need to sleep on this.
Let's see... New Year's comin'. Hopefully, I'll get lucky this time and never suffer from bouts of paranoia all through out the coming year. I'm keepin' my fingers crossed on this...
One topic we talked about is our HS upcoming reunion... Well, just told her that I'll definitely not be going to that "thing". Why? What's the use? The only person I probably would want to see there is her. So I might as well just meet up with her and have our loooong talks about life in private, without somebody overhearing what I have and want to say. Besides, I'm not interest with my other HS classmates lives after HS. Why? Because I'm just not interested. Yeah, I know, I'm becoming apathetic again. Must be because of our other topic earlier - Bonnie. I actually do not care anymore... I've been hurt, she was also hurt and I don't think we would ever become friends again. As I've told Rosario, we definitely could be civil towards one another but be close friends as before? I don't think so. Not in this lifetime. Maybe in another lifetime, when we would both have the chance to think things over before saying - or in this case writing anything - it to the other person. As I've written before, I'm over it. I have managed to move on. I do not want to think about it anymore. I just hope... Never mind... It's all in the past and we all know that we could never ever erase what had happened already.
We also had the chance to talk about our respective relationships... They just celebrated their 2 year anniversary while we are nearing our 5 year mark... Are we happy? I would like to think so... Why am I not sure you ask? I also do not know. But don't take my word on this... I'm just feeling a little low (again). Maybe, this is just an end result of the Christmas season. Or maybe I'm just feeling something (instinct) that I just cannot quite understand. Is it a sign of things to come or am I being paranoid (AGAIN)? I probably need help assessing these feelings 'coz I'm getting nowhere with them. Or maybe, just maybe, I only need to sleep on this.
Let's see... New Year's comin'. Hopefully, I'll get lucky this time and never suffer from bouts of paranoia all through out the coming year. I'm keepin' my fingers crossed on this...
lizzieloves, 9:49:00 PM
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