Wonderings of an Aimless Mind

Monday, January 31, 2005

To You...

Even though we're not that okay, actually if I need to be honest, i'll say that we are NOT okay. But then again, I'm still in love with him... There, I've admitted it na since I'm being honest and all na rin naman.

Monday, January 24, 2005

Being SINGLE means that...

...I could now go out without letting anobody know where I will be at a certain day (except for my parents).
...I now won't feel guilty when meeting up with my guy friends.
...I do not have to allocate my meager PTO's for his R and R schedule.
...I do not need to wait for 3 to 6 months before seeing that somebody.
...I do not have to send those requisite good mornings and good night text messages.
...I don't have to go to the airport and bus terminals to say goodbye.
...I wont be worrying about going to a far flung area just to see somebody I love.
...I can spend all my money for my own shopping needs.
...I never have to worry about remembering the names and faces of his friends and mistahs.
...I do not have to check an email address just to keep it active.
...I could now leave my cellphone in peace without worrying that I'm gonna miss a call or not be able to reply to a message as soon as I receive it.
...I only have to think of what I want to do and not ask for another person's opinion.
...I do not have to travel for 12 hours just to visit his place.
...I do not have to go to Baguio for his mistah's wedding or his class reunion if I don't want to.
...I do not have to worry about our nation's state of security.
...I will not worry about missing an anniversarry.
...I do not have to look for an appropriate gift for special occassions.
...I don't have to send any "care packages" through LBC.
...my 300 pesos load on my cellphone will now be able to last the whole month.
...I'll only be buying prepaid credits for my own consumption.
...I could now erase the "This I Promise You" ringing tone in my phone.
...I won't be saying I Love You's and I Miss You's over the phone.
...I do not have anybody to call "baby" anymore.
...February 24 is just another day.

Saturday, January 22, 2005

Crying Time

Let me say I love you for the last time
Let me give you this one last kiss
Let me give you this one last look for me to keep
I promise not to bother you ever again
Just let me do those things first...

I'm also gonna cry on my own
No need to bother you with my emotions
I'm crumbling inside
Dying without your touch
Trying hard not break down

Monday, January 17, 2005

i HATE goodbyes...

"I wont be the one to chase you
But at the same time you're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
and the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time I'm wasting
Trying to find a reason for goodbye"



Sunday, January 16, 2005

A New Life

This is my first day at work... What I meant was, this would be my first day as an "email" agent for our team. This would also be my first day in my new schedule. My schedule actually sucks... I suck for getting the last priority for the sked bid!!! But at least I didn't get the 2pm shift, that would be infinitely worst for me. At least now, I do not have to use my PTO just to attend our monthly meetings for the biz, thank God for small miracles!

Speaking of PTO's, it's only January and it seems like I'll be using 6 of those 20 PTO's already! Bad Elizabeth!!! Not that I was forced to use them yah know. At least I get to spend "quality" time with my baby... Hmmm, just hope it was also time well spent for him.

Monday, January 10, 2005

Thoughts...Thoughts...Thoughts...

2004 taught me to that...

...I'm not always in control, even though I sometimes fool myself in believing that I control all the aspects in my life.
...I could get by just 2 hours of sleep.
...nothing could replace the sleep you get at night.
...smoking is BAD for my health.
...there really are no holidays.
...sometimes you just have to learn to read between the lines and not take things as it is.
...promises are meant to be broken.
...there are things you are better off not knowing.
...thinking too much will just make you paranoid.
...I'm really a masochist in disguise.
...I could be a B-I-T-C-H to the nth degree.
...loving somebody takes a LOT of courage and trust to work.
...sometimes you just have to suck it up and then let it be.
...I could still make new friends even though I promised myself to stay away from "friend-commitmnets".
...old friends are very important because they keep your feet on the ground.
...I really love McDonalds Strawberry Float.
...I could write a blog and also let other people read my thoughts.
...there is such a thing as luck.
...you really need to just believe in yourself and to hell with what other people says.
...I love my bro even though he annoys me like hell.
...my world revolves around a certain person at times.
...I am a pathetic person...and always will be.


Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong And no one understands you Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud That no one hears you screaming No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels alright You don't know what it's like to be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Do you wanna be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desperate to find something more Before your life is over Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With their big fake smiles and stupid lies While deep inside you're bleeding No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels alright You don't know what it's like to be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life No one ever lies straight to your face And no one ever stabbed you in the back You might think I'm happy But I'm not gonna be ok Everybody always gave you what you wanted You never had to work it was always there You don't know what it's like What it's like To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Welcome to my life Welcome to my life



WELCOME TO MY LIFE

Saturday, January 08, 2005

Insensitive!

Things are not always what it seems to be. Couldn't you just learn to read between the lines...

I'm getting tired of this... This cycle just never stops... When will I ever learn?

Saturday, January 01, 2005

New Year Resolutions? Duh!!!

Nope, no New Year resolutions this time around... Just a heartfelt wish that everything's gonna be alright this year...


NEW YEAR BLUES!!!

It's New Year's eve and I'm stuck here at the office taking these f*****g phone calls! I'm tired and I'm so sleepy... I wanna go home and just sleep! I don't have the energy to think of a decent thing to write here.

It sucks to be me right now...
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        For all the years that I've known you baby
        I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
        (didn't you say)
        If there's a problem we should work it out
        So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
        Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
        (tell me)
        Ok I know I was late again
        I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
        But why are you making this drag on so long
        (i wanna know)
        I'm sick and tired of this silly games
        (silly games)
        Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
        It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
        That's when you turned and said to me
        I don't care babe who's right or wrong
        I just don't love you no more.


        Rain outside my window pouring down
        What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
        Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
        Now it's, too late, to turn it around
        I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
        I guess this time it really is goodbye
        You made it clear when you said
        I just don't love you no more


        I know that I made a few mistakes
        But never thought that things would turn out this way
        Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
        (I see it all so clearly)
        Me at the door with you inner state
        (inner state)
        Giving my reasons but as you look away
        I can see a tear roll down your face
        That's when you turned and said to me
        I don't care babe who's right or wrong
        I just don't love you no more.


        Rain outside my window pouring down
        What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
        Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
        Now it's, too late, to turn it around
        I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
        I guess this time it really is goodbye
        You made it clear when you said
        I just don't love you no more


        Don't say those words it's so hard
        They turn my whole world upside down
        Girl you caught me completely off guard
        On the night you said to me
        I just don't love you more.


        Rain outside my window pouring down
        What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
        Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
        Now it's, too late, to turn it around
        I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
        I guess this time it really is goodbye
        You made it clear when you said
        I just don't love you no more