Wonderings of an Aimless Mind

I've been working through the weekends and also clocking in more than 10 hours a day. Then, to make matters worst my laptop's not working! And since I'm working during the weekends I can't get it fixed. Darn, darn and darn again. That's mostly the reason why I haven't been posting anything here.

On a good note though, Carl's here!

Finally... I'm done with long hair. Yeah, had a haircut last Sunday which was way overdue already. You see, I was supposed to have had my hair cut years ago but I always resisted the idea 'coz of a lot of things. Dunno what made up my mind, I guess its a combination of this and that. Whatever my reasons were, I finally made the jump, err the cut, to shorter hair. Now I look like siopao with hair, bwahahaha! Nah, I look like I'm still in college! Or maybe, I just remember my college days whenever I look into the mirror because this was the same length that I maintained way back then.

I also made myself commit to one very important thing last month... hopefully I would have the courage to stand by that commitment. So no more text messages and calls to you anymore. I know that it's not gonna work out like the way I wanted it to, so I might as well end it (although it's debatable whether we actually had something going on) while I still have the strength to pick up the pieces of my life again. At syempre, you willingly cooperated - insert a very sarcastic grin. Ewan ko sa iyo! But I would still like to see you, why? Well, it's for me to know and for you to find out. So if you have the time, you know how to contact me.

Darn! My battery's running out! Gotta publish this now... Byers!

Inside Your Heaven
Carrie Underwood

I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
When mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holdin you until the day I die
And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
Oh yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven


Although I can't sing this, given the high notes - I'll leave this to Carla May to sing, I want to sing this when I get married. For now, since I am still waiting for "the One" I'll settle to listening to the song over and over again.

I so enjoyed our Palawan sojourn, wish we could have stayed there a bit longer so we could see all there is to see. Hmmm, scrap that, I would love to just go back there again and explore the place all over again. Thanks to Carla for not making kwento that "mumu" story while we were back there or else I would have been unable to sleep! I have a lot of things to tell about the trip but as of the moment I am not inclined to write about it 'coz of plain "katamaran". You see, I've been writing a lot at work and all my creative juices have been drained out of me. Therefore I can't come up with something that would bring justice to all the adventures and mis-adventures that happened last May 9 to 11. Hopefully I could scrap about it... have lots of pictures courtesy of all our combined cameras, hehehe!

Downside of the said trip: I got sunburned to the max! Argh! Hopefully, I get my "old skin" back before our Laoag trip... We're planning to stay the longest at Pagudpud pa naman, waaahhh!!! Anyhoo, maybe I'll start my glutathione regimen again, hehehe! I also need to start exercising again! No more lazy days for me!

Time check: 10:28AM

And I'm still wide awake! I need to sleep real soon or else I'm going to have a lot of sleep deficit. I wonder if I could even "pay-off" all my sleep dept. Sa sobrang dami, I can't keep track anymore. Way sad state of life.

Good thing I was able to communicate with Rosario, my bestest friend in the whole wide world! Yeah, yeah, it's just through YM, but what the heck, at least we have a chance to go to Laoag this coming September. I'm keeping my fingers crossed! Hopefully, she doesn't have anything scheduled at that time.

I also wanna post a shout out to Carla: Good luck in your quest to be the TeleTech Idol! I know you can do it. Don't forget to send me a copy of your performance ha? You have to win 'coz of you, that song "I Will Love Again" is now making its rounds in my head! This gotta be the worst case of LSS for me. But in fairness to the song, I kinda like it.

It's 3:50AM and....

I. Want. To. Go. Home. Now!!! And I can't! Argh!!! I've been here at the office since 6PM and I'm supposed to go home at 3AM. However, I have a meeting at 4AM and then at 4:30AM. Darn it! I don't even have OT pay and yet I'm always extending my hours. Over na ako sa OTY nyan and this gotta stop! Because I wanna go home na, ang init tuloy ng ulo ko ngayon. Knowing me, whenever I feel this way, I get so mataray and kawawa naman ang kakausap sa akin. My golly gulay talaga, naiinis talaga ako. I am ready to give up... Nah, ngayon lang ito, mainit lang ang ulo ko... SOBRA! Besides, it's seldom that I rant about the extra hours I spend here at the office... kaya pagbigyan na ako. Pero gusto ko na talagang umuwi kasi super antok na ako, promise.

Haaay, i really wanna write something here 'coz I've been missing this blog so damn much! I've been reading other people's blog and it always makes me miss writing here. So why haven't I been writing? Well, a combination of lots of things... one is the lack of time and energy to write something coherent, another would be my sucky internet connection here at the apartment (it actually took around a minute for this page to load! grrr!!!).

Anyways, since this page finally loaded before I fell asleep, I'd better write something na rin di ba? Actually, all I can say right now is that I am so so so excited with our upcoming Palawan trip! Gosh, only 10 freakin' days to go!!! You could just imagine my excitement, after all my last trip to the beach was last year pa. And I finally could touch base again with friends from the Nova site, Carla, Nek, Ms. Lanie... I so miss them na talaga. This trip also signals the start of many more trips to come, right Carla? So yes, I am that excited... Sorry, talagang excited lang ako. Paano ba naman, ang tagal ko ng gusto magbakasyon... You know away from all the stress at work. Pero my gulay, kinda "scared" din ako... well not really "scared", praning lang, kasi naman may humirit sa akin na malapit lang ang mga bad elements dun. Tama ba naman na takutin ako? Pero hindi, love naman kami ni God kaya walang bad na mangyayari sa amin dun.

Ibang topic naman... Ano na nangyari sa exercise thingee ko? Well, tuloy tuloy pa din, nyahahaha! For those who know me, alam nyo na I so hated exercising because I hate sweating... Pero ngayon, I feel so kulang whenever I don't have the time to exercise. Besides, feeling ko I lost control over my eating habits before and I so badly need to get back into shape. So ayan, kinda diet and exercise ang drama ko ngayon. All I could say is: Mahirap sya... Walang biro! Pero kaka-addict din, the exercise thing I mean, definitely not the diet thing (sarap kaya kumain). Basta, sarap ng feeling when I'm done with my exercise routine. Nag level-up na nga eh, before around 15 to 20 minutes lang, now kulang pa ang 40 minutes. Ang bad thing lang dito sa apartment, medj dapat wag masyadong bigay na bigay kasi kahiya naman sa mga nakatira sa baba... Basta, pag nakapunta na kayo sa apartment ko alam nyo na ang ibig kong sabihin, hehehehe!!!

Hopefully, matuloy din ang kunyaring mini-outing ng mga HCD folks in Subic. Gosh, been here for a year na and I haven't even "experienced" the rest of Pampanga! True yan, office and apartment lang ako dito... well, not quite, take into consideration that our office is just at SM San Fernando. So almost everyday nasa SM ako, nyahahaha!

My gulay, 2:48pm na at hindi pa ako natutulog. I'd better sleep, or else waaay late na naman ako nyan later, have to exercise pa naman...

Nytnyt folks!

I'm hungry... Actually, I've been hungry for more than 3 months now (yan ang feeling ng isang taong nagda-diet). Started dieting mainly because of Michelle's wedding and then I realized that we'll be going to Palawan come May so I decided to just continue with my "less rice" diet. Now, I'm even exercising! Yeah, you heard it right pipz, I am now exercising. Not the super serious exercise thingee, just a 15 to 20 minute low impact workout at home before I take my bath. Hopefully, that would make a difference before the Palawan trip, bwehehehe! Kinda excited kasi ako sa trip na yun 'coz that trip actually jump starts my travel plans for the whole year. So yeah, I'll be going to Palawan this coming May, then by September I'll be going to Laoag and come December, I'll be flying to Dumaguete, Bohol and Siquijor. I wanna see the rest of the Philippines before I get married... WTF, where did that came from?!!! So yes, I do have plans to walk down that proverbial aisle (just not that long of an aisle my dear Michelle, I almost fell off my face 'coz I was laughing while walking down that red carpet).

So what's going down with my life these past few weeks? Haven't been updating here 'coz I'm having a heck of a time organizing words in my head to come up with a decent post. COme to think of it, I have dozens of discarded drafts for would-be updates but I never did get to finish any one of them. Composing an entry nowadays is like listening to recordings of calls submitted to us for issuance of NTE - PAINFUL! Painful in such a way that you want to stop listening to the call because you're having a hard time understanding what the agent is saying and would like to jump in and say, "this is how you say it so you get your point accross". Argh... see, my thoughts are just all over the place! I thought, maybe, I just need a full weekend for myself ('coz for the past few weekends I've been going home to Manila and essentialy not getting any rest out of my supposedly "rest days") here in Pampanga and do nothing but sleep so I could get back my penchant for writing. But given the jumbled up state of my thoughts, I guess that one weekend is not enough. Let's see if by next week I can come up with a more decent post than this one.

Since I can' t up with good updates about my life, I'll leave you guys with something I saw from someone else's blog (was doing a bit of blog hopping when I stumbled upon these "quotes" - dunno who owns the blog though):

"This is for those girls, who fell back in love with a guy, only to get hurt all over again..."

"This is for those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist."

"When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it."

"One day, you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will."

Does these "quotes" apply to me right now? Well, not really... I'm good with that part of my life right now. I've accepted the fact that he will just be a friend... only a friend from now on. Just want to post these "quotes" here to remind myself that I once went through all that crappy, crying, almost down and out stage of my life but I eventually passed them and I'm now doing just fine.