Wonderings of an Aimless Mind
Friday, February 04, 2005
I DO NOT KNOW!!!
Friends have been asking me if me and Arbern are back together again... Well, the answer is NO. I don't even know what to do in regards to that. I still haven't decided yet and I frankly don't wanna decide right now.
My mind's a mess... actually my life's a mess right now. I do not know what I want to do, in general. Seems like my whole life is being affected by that very "untimely" decision. Well, I never did plan on breaking up with Arbern, this I know for sure. I guess, he did plan on "forgetting" (AGAIN) the number of years we've been together - Yes, bitter po talaga ako about that! I guess, he also did not mean for me to see that message, which he immediately deleted, from that GIRL (who that girl is, I really don't wanna know!) after being happy together. And I'm sure that he also didn't meant to be sooooo insensitive after all this time.
Yeah right Elizabeth, keep on making excuses for him! I just wonder, when will I ever get tired of thinking that I'm REALLY okay with our present situation? Or more to the point, when will I ever let go of this relationship that has been such a big impact on everyday life? Am I just holding on for the sake of familiarity? Or, am I just afraid to find out that I just a made a big mistake and HE is truly the one that I really want to spend the rest of my life with.
Good job! I just made my life more complicated by asking those questions. Questions that I have been avoiding for quite some time now. Wish me goodluck guys! Hopefully, I still could get some sleep without being bugged by those questions.
My mind's a mess... actually my life's a mess right now. I do not know what I want to do, in general. Seems like my whole life is being affected by that very "untimely" decision. Well, I never did plan on breaking up with Arbern, this I know for sure. I guess, he did plan on "forgetting" (AGAIN) the number of years we've been together - Yes, bitter po talaga ako about that! I guess, he also did not mean for me to see that message, which he immediately deleted, from that GIRL (who that girl is, I really don't wanna know!) after being happy together. And I'm sure that he also didn't meant to be sooooo insensitive after all this time.
Yeah right Elizabeth, keep on making excuses for him! I just wonder, when will I ever get tired of thinking that I'm REALLY okay with our present situation? Or more to the point, when will I ever let go of this relationship that has been such a big impact on everyday life? Am I just holding on for the sake of familiarity? Or, am I just afraid to find out that I just a made a big mistake and HE is truly the one that I really want to spend the rest of my life with.
Good job! I just made my life more complicated by asking those questions. Questions that I have been avoiding for quite some time now. Wish me goodluck guys! Hopefully, I still could get some sleep without being bugged by those questions.
lizzieloves, 8:20:00 AM
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