Wonderings of an Aimless Mind

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Homework!

Thank God for my laptop! Now I could finish some of my work here at the apartment. I know that I should not be bringing home work but I can't help it. I just have lots and lots of things to do and I can't find the time to do all of them at the office. Why? Well, there's a lot of interruptions, plus the fact that I am constantly holding roadshows... argh!!! Work, work, work! It's just all about work. So far I have finished 4 NTE's and has also drafted 2. I just need to do one more when I get to the office. Here's to wishing that I could send all of the work I have done successfully via email!

I gotta go, again! I have a meeting by 11pm tonight and I can't afford to miss this one as this would be presided by our director. It's just that I know this will be an extra work load for me... I am so hoping that they would assign somebody for this project!

BTW, somebody's birthday is just 2 days away... so to you: A very Happy Birthday. I wish I could at least talk to you on your special day. And yes, I do miss you... even though I'm not supposed to.

lizzieloves, 1:18:00 PM | link | 0 comments |

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Try.. Try... Try...

Instead of doing the update at home with my oh so slow internet connection, I'm trying my luck here at the office... Bad girl! Funny thing lang kasi, I can't see my actual blog but I could log in, create posts and publish. Anyways, it's already 1:30PM and I'm still here at the office! When will this overstaying stop?! Oh well, that's life. Hopefully, I get to have the whole weekend for myself and I plan to get a full body massage and then sleep the whole weekend away. I guess, I just have to buy a lot "melatonin" so I could sleep for long periods of time. Still having trouble sleeping, bah! And if I get that whole weekend for myself, I promise to post a long and in-depth entry here. I noticed that my posts are just so blah and babaw, hehehe. I guess, I'm just tired and can't really think that well. So, tada for now...

lizzieloves, 1:27:00 PM | link | 0 comments |

Monday, January 26, 2009

"The Secret"

The planning session last Saturday lasted a total of 11 hours, which meant that I had a whopping 16 hours of work! There goes my other plans for the weekend. However, I learned a lot from the planning session including getting to know about the concept of "The Secret". If one would just think back and look deeper into the events that happened then I guess one would see the "truthfulness" of the concept. But there's this thingee incorporated in the said concept that is basically saying that we are "setting-up" ourselves for all the things happening in our lives, good or bad. Hmmm... Oh well, I guess that's reality for you, there would always be good and bad, happiness and sadness... and the list goes on which is basically the idea of the whole yin and yang theory. Anyways, I decided to try and apply "The Secret" in my life and see what happens.

lizzieloves, 2:55:00 PM | link | 0 comments |

Friday, January 23, 2009

Some kinda hell of a week

Thank God that this week is about to end! Thank God it's already Friday... I at least have the Sunday to look forward to as it's still all about work this coming Saturday! Oh my golly gulay, can somebody just fast forward this month and the next month please?!!! I have an inkling that next month will be be a much more hectic month than this as there have been some MAJOR MAJOR change happening at work. The change is a good AND bad thing... that is all I would say regarding this matter right now since we are still just at the starting line. We definitely have a looooong way to go before we settle (or not settle) in this entirely new set-up. I just feel so bad with how they handled what happened. Maybe it's because I have a feeling that there's still another way to handle the situation. Oh crap, I will not cry over that thing right now for what is done is done. I just have to get over myself and start thinking positively 'coz that's the only way to go if I still want to be effective with my position. But man, it's definitely getting more and more hectic and stressful at work. I guess I gotta say a big goodbye to "Work Life Balance" as I am already anticipating a 14-hour work day every damn day! This would mean NO social life for me until this thing at the office stabilizes! And how long would that be? Hopefully just for another 3 months! Oh please let it just be 3 months!

I gotta log off so I could sleep. I'm working from 11pm tonight until 5pm tomorrow so I need all the sleep that I could get! HELP!

lizzieloves, 1:01:00 PM | link | 0 comments |

Monday, January 19, 2009

MONDAY blues...

It's Monday... again! This means that in just a few hours its back to the office again! Argh! Why don't we have 3 weekend days? And if that "planning session" would push through this coming Saturday, it would mean that I would only have a single day to recharge my batteries! Wait, I won't even have that day 'coz I need to go to manila for that fitting session! Double argh!

Good thing I was able to be, kind of, productive during the weekend. I was finally able to download the ebooks that I ordered last November. But since I have a very slow internet connection it took me hours to download the lot of them to my laptop. Now I could order some more ebooks. I kinda have a list ready at the office, so I just might shoot an email to my "supplier" tonight. Nice! Ever since I discovered my current "supplier" of ebooks I now do not religiously go to the bookstore for books. It's more cheaper this way... hehehe! Good thing I could also use my PSP in reading the stuff or else I would forever be staring at my laptop just to be able to read some of these ebooks. Oh well, you can't have it all right?

Will be logging off soon... I need to get me some sleep or else I will be so sleepy at the office and I can't afford that since I have a lot of stuff to work on tonight. Hopefully I get at least 5 hours of sleep as soon as I log off.

lizzieloves, 1:16:00 PM | link | 0 comments |

Saturday, January 17, 2009

a VERY hectic week

I am so mentally and physically drained right now! There was so much work and so little time to do them. So many things are happening at once at the office and we are kinda at our wits end on how to keep up. In fact I was so tired by the time I get home that I was not able to update this blog. All I wanted to do was fall asleep and dream that I was far far far away! Anyways, this too shall pass, we just have to work our asses off first.

There's really nothing to say unless I wanna write about what I did at the office and I don't wanna get into that right now 'coz it's the weekend and I surely don't wanna think about work again. All I could say is that I'm going to try to zero out my sleep deficit... therefore I'm probably going to sleep for the whole weekend.

lizzieloves, 4:41:00 PM | link | 0 comments |

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Less than 24 hours in Manila

Am back here in San Fernando. Hitched a ride from the company's van so I would not feel quite so tamad to go back. Anyways, I really had a nice time bonding with Ms. Lanie and Anna (Nek was unable to join due to hubby constraints). I kinda ate a lot! I had a cup of rice, crispy kangkong, crispy pata, calamares, sinigang na pork and buko shake at Dencio's then blueberry crepe and strawberry and apple smoothie at UCC. My gosh, that was a feast for me already 'coz I'm cutting down my food intake because of that wedding! Argh! But it was really nice "up there" in Capitol Hills since Dencio's was situated up high, I saw the cityscape of QC. Then we tranferred to Tomas Morato to have coffee sana at Starbucks but since the place was packed we had to look for another place so we went to UCC. Good thing 'coz I already miss eating there and they have yummy desserts and their drinks are not sweet... just right for me.

Hopefully my brother will get here before 5pm 'coz I am sooo sleepy na, I only had 4 hours of sleep so I could be at trinoma by 9am. Hmmm, maybe I'll sleep after this...

lizzieloves, 11:09:00 AM | link | 0 comments |

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Weekend... Weekend... Weekend!

It's the weekend... finally! I'm going back to Manila to meet up with Ms. Lanie, Anna and Nek for a long overdue "gimik". This was supposed to happen during the holiday season but due to scheduling conflicts we were not able to meet up. After this meeting, I'm targeting to meet Cai and her kiddies. Hopefully our schedules would jive so we could meet. Besides, I would definitely need to go back to Manila before the month ends 'coz I need to get measured up for my dress for Michelle's wedding (note to self: I definitely need to get serious with my so-called fitness plan - translation: never forget to take those white capsules! hehehe, daya!)

Anyways, I have to log-off soon 'coz I need to get some sleep before my trip back or else I'm not gonna enjoy our meeting 'coz I'll be too sleepy by then.

Happy Weekend!!!

lizzieloves, 7:46:00 AM | link | 0 comments |

Thursday, January 08, 2009

Dum Di Doo...

I so love this song right now...

IMPOSIBLE
by KC Concepcion

Akala mo hindi ko kaya
Ang iwanan at limutin ka
Akala mo, akala ko
Akala nating dalawa
Tayong dalawa.
Eto ka n naman
Walang alam, walang pakialam
Di mo ba nakikita
Sa 'king mga mata
Hindi ako nasasaktan
Hindi kita kinakailangan
Hindi ako nagdaramdam
IMPOSIBLE!
Pag- ibig mo'y limot ko na
Hindi kita inaalala
Hindi na 'ko aasa pa
IMPOSIBLE!

Ang labo mo naman kausap
Di mo pa ba nakukuha
Hoy, naririnig mo ba ako
Pakiusap, pakiusap naman
Wag ka nang magtanong
Pakinggan mo na lang itong binubulong
Ng puso ko sa puso mo
At hindi itong sinasabi ko woahhh...
Hindi ako nasasaktan
Hindi kita kinakailangan
Hindi ako nagdaramdam
IMPOSIBLE!
Pag- ibig mo'y limot ko na
Hindi kita inaalala
Hindi na 'ko aasa pa
IMPOSIBLE!

Mangyari 'yan
Hinding hindi, hindi mo ba alam
Tanging ikaw lang sa puso ko
Sa isip at gunita ko

Hindi ako nasasaktan
Hindi kita kinakailangan
Hindi ako nagdaramdam
IMPOSIBLE!
Pag- ibig mo'y limot ko na
Hindi kita inaalala
Hindi na 'ko aasa pa
IMPOSIBLE!
Sa bawat araw at gabi
Hinding hindi kita naiisip
Kahit man lang isang saglit
IMPOSIBLE!
Pilitin mang limutin ka
Ngunit Hinding hindi magawa
Paano nga ba magawa
Ang IMPOSIBLE...

IMPOSIBLE...

IMPOSIBLE...

IMPOSIBLE...

'La lang... kaka-relate ba ako? Hmmm, that's for me to know and for you not to find out!

lizzieloves, 9:03:00 AM | link | 0 comments |

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

So Tired

Tired, that is what I am right now after an almost 13-hour shift. Not only that, I have to report to work earlier than usual as we are expecting a "very important person" tonight at 9pm. My gosh, and this is just my second shift for the year! Well, I was expecting this... I knew this year would be tiring as ever. But, truth be told, I am kinda enjoying it. Yeah, I know it's ironic, me enjoying the very tiring and stressful work... but yes, I am enjoying it... still.

But at least, I have something to look forward to this coming May. We are going to Palawan! Yes, I agreed to go to Palawan with a whole lot of people. I can't back out 'coz we have already booked round trip flights. I am excited but a bit "scared" 'coz I know I have to venture far away from my comfort zone 'coz they are planning hiking and camping activities which I am not that fond of. I know, I'm gonna hear a lot of teasing if I start whining about stuff. Good thing we have a "medical team" as we have a doctor and 3 nurses joining the trip. Anyways, we still have four months to get ready and I'm definitely gonna get ready...

lizzieloves, 12:00:00 PM | link | 0 comments |

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Back to WORK!

I survived my first shift for the year 2009! Well technically my second shift 'coz I kinda reported to work last January 2 at our Nova site to do some approving. Anyways, I'm kinda feeling a bit sleepy right now because I'm still adjusting to the whole night shift thingee again... I was hoping I could practice the whole "Work Life Balance" thing but it seems like I started the year not following that. I still managed to render a 12-hour shift even though I already thought of going home at 7am. "Honda" na sana ako, pero syempre there's a million and one things to do, so I was forced to extend! Hopefully, I could minimize all those extended hours - as if!

Gotta go... Have to go to sleep or else I'm gonna be late for work! And I don't want that now 'coz I'm aiming on going home at 7am.

lizzieloves, 10:59:00 AM | link | 0 comments |

Monday, January 05, 2009

Back here...

I'm now here in San Fernando... Still feeling a bit sad about the end of my kinda long vacation. I just wish there's some way I could prolong the holidays so I could stay at home. If only, I could go back to our Nova site... But that's definitely wishful thinking on my part. Good thing my brother is still here with me, however, he's also gonna go to Bataan in just a few hours... then I'm gonna be alone... again. Well, not really alone, I have Macor with me here at the apartment and my office mates at the office... but it's still not the same. I wish... I wish... I wish...

Enough of that, I chose this. I chose to be assigned here in Pampanga so I better stop wishing that I wasn't here right now! Anyways, home is really just an hour away and I could always go home whenever I want to. I think I'm gonna go back there this coming weekend 'coz I have to do the fitting thingee for Michelle's wedding or else I'm cooked! So there. Stop whining Lizzie, alright?!!!

Have to go now, I still have to organize my files. I copied a lot of old files from my PC back at home and I want to do this right, this time around. Be back, hopefully, tomorrow after work.

lizzieloves, 12:12:00 AM | link | 0 comments |

Saturday, January 03, 2009

Just a few hours away...

I kinda feel a bit sad right now 'coz I'm going back to Pampanga in just a few hours. The long vacation (12 days to be exact) is near it's end. Back to work for me, which also means that I'm going back to the night shift! Argh! I so love the mid shift but I was told that they want be back on the night shift so there.

Anyways, I'm gonna miss a lot of things when I go back to Pampanga. But I know that I will definitely miss my parents and my brother. I don't know, but I usually feel this whenever I have to leave our house after a long vacation. Like before, when I was still studying in Baguio... Whenever I have to back to Baguio after the sem break or Christmas break, I usually feel so sad when it's time to say goodbye to my parents and my brother 'coz school's gonna start again. I remember that I used to cry at the bus going back to Baguio. Dunno, but I have this separation anxiety thingee going on whenever I have to say goodbye, and maybe that is the reason why I really suck at goodbyes! I guess, I just hate goodbyes 'coz goodbyes are synonymous to missing people. And i just do not like the feeling of missing somebody, of not being able to see that person regularly or not being able to talk, hug or kiss that somebody. And yes, I'm going of tangent now...

So back to my going to Pampanga and back to work... As I am saying before I'm going back to the night shift, which means that I have to sleep during the day again. This also means that I would be incommunicado again during the weekdays and Saturdays 'coz I'm asleep! So if you guys would like to speak to me, call or text me at night, unless I have meetings galore at that time I probably would answer or reply back.

There's another reason why I kinda don't want this vacation to end... I am fervently hoping that he would not bug (call, text or show his face) me when I go back there. Not that I hate him, I just do not like him and the things he said in my voice mail. It's kind of creeping me out. I hope he was just able to say those things because he was under the influence of alcohol, or he just sounds like he was under the influence of alcohol. But whatever the case may be, I am really hoping that it would all end NOW! Please!

Good thing, my brother's going with me tomorrow. I asked him to accompany me so I'll have somebody to help me adjust to the life back there. I just wish that would be enough.

lizzieloves, 11:23:00 PM | link | 0 comments |

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For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this drag on so long
(i wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly games
(silly games)
Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you inner state
(inner state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more