Wonderings of an Aimless Mind

I am slowly but surely rediscovering the joys of blogging again... For quite some time now, I have been having a hard time composing a decent entry for my blog, but now I can't seem to stop myself from creating an entry, either directly in blogger or on the notepad of my PC/lappy. I have also been reading the blog entries of random people now, whereas before I only read the blogs of people I personally know. I really want this blog to be something that I could always refer back to whenever I wanna reminisce, which was my original reason for setting up a blog in the first place... basically just like a personal journal in cyberspace.

When I was still in high school and up until my college years, I have always maintained a diary of some sorts. Writing became my outlet whenever I have some things that I want to work out on my own or I'm not yet ready to discuss with another person. I found out that I could actually process whatever it is that has been bugging me whenever I write it down. It sort of makes things a lot clearer from my perspective, seeing said thoughts in black and white. Although I have to admit that I was a lot more straight forward when I was still just writing my thoughts in my diary back then 'coz now I catch myself "screening" what I am writing in this blog because at the back of my head, I know that this is not a personal site and there are just some things that I am not ready to announce to the whole world wide web. But now, things will definitely change since I want this blog to chronicle what I have been going doing throughout the years, both the good and the bad, 'coz that's the reality of my life. So people, let this be a warning... from now on I will try my very best not to censor my thoughts whenever I am writing down an entry, therefore, you will either just hate, love or be plain bored with me. I will write whatever it is I am feeling right at that moment, whether I am happy, sad, disappointed, frustrated, elated, tired... well you get my point. And to start it off, here's a short entry about my day earlier.

I reported to work at 9AM which is a deviation from my normal schedule at work... Why? Well to be honest I was not able to get a good night sleep last night and was not able to coax my body to get up on time. Good thing I also have a lot of things to iron out during the day, plus the fact that I kinda have a flexi sked set-up with my boss. I so love working during the day now because it gives me sense of normalcy but due to business needs I still have to report during the night. The down side of working during the day is that I always, always extend my working hours so that I could still be at the office until the start of business, which is usually at 10PM. Take for example today... I reported at 9AM but I was only able to log out at 12:20AM, that's basically 15 hours spent at the office. This is the reason why I do not have a social life to speak of, very pathetic of me I know.

Before I forget... I have to decide now whether I am gonna push through with my application with another company. I already passed the initial interview and I was supposed to be interviewed by the manager of the department but I pushed back at the last minute. Why?! Because for one, I was not willing to travel to Makati for the said interview after my shift then go back again to Pampanga in time for my next shift at work. Another reason is that, there's already a "lot" of employees from mhy current company who's working there already. Nu yun, mini-reunion ng mga ex-employees galing sa T------h? Now, I am looking for a way to back out from that application, however, I am still not 100% sure if that is really what I want right now. Gulo ko din kasi eh. I am giving myself up until the weekend to decide, if by Monday I still don't have a decision, I will just proceed with the interview and then go from there. So good luck to me, hope I could make the right decision this time.