Wonderings of an Aimless Mind

It has been a while since I last posted in here. Too many stuff to do but so little time. Still trying to adjust to my new job and new place. Gone were the days where Jeannie and Rosey is just a text message away so I could reconnect with them again. No more late night gimicks with friends or even our coffee/yosi sessions with Ate Anna and Katz after Okasyon meetings because I now have to contend with the loooong travel to get home. No more tambay at Glorietta and sadly I haven't played again at TimeZone. Yikes, come to think about it I officially do not have a social life right now. Zero, nada, zilch! Oh well, every dream comes with its own price and I'm now paying for a dream of mine. But no regrets here... I just have to stick with this long enough for me to actually get to where I wanted to go. Go where? Nah, that's for me to know as of now. When I'm finally there, I'll probably tell you guys. Just not yet, okay?

Since I'm already whining, let me go on with that feeling and enumerate the things I currently miss...

*going on vacations - especially going to Baguio
*reading at least 2 books in one night
*playing with my Neopet
*writing in my blog regularly
*late night-outs with friends
*eating out with friends - food trips
*regular spa treatments
*our old house
*paved roads
*MRT
*daydreaming to the max!
*the Brat!
*caramel frap at starbucks
*my regular diet of McDonalds chicken nuggets and strawberry/coke float
*surf and downloads galore
*blog hopping
*shopping
*my old bed - sagging mattress and all
*feeling tipsy after 3 shots of my fave kurant...
*...and the conversation that one could only hear during "inuman" sessions
*my friends back at PS
*cuddling sessions
*and most of all I miss YOU... whoever you may be.

See I'm such a simple gal... Mababaw lang yung mga bagay-bagay na hinahanap ko. Paano ba naman parang nakatira ako ngayon sa isang malayong lugar. My golly gulay! Imagine I have to pass by that road na hindi na ata maayos-ayos ever! Feeling ko pwede akong pumayat dahil 'pag dumadaan ako dun, nakakalog ang buo kong katawan. Tsaka gabi-gabi na lang akong bad-trip sa pagpasok dahil sa mga taong walang ginawa kundi tumawid na lang basta-basta! Wala ata silang concept ng pedestrian lanes. At sila manong driver naman eh kung saan-saan na lang humihinto, hindi ata uso ang loading at unloading zones dito. Kaya ngayon ko lang talga na-appreciate ang Ayala road with its designated loading and unloading zone.

Oh well, na-sobrahan na ata ang whining session na ito. Para tuloy wala na akong nagustuhan sa mga pagbabago na nangyari sa akin. In fairness, I feel really blessed right now 'coz I have stuff going on for me right now that were not there before. I really hope to God that I do get there. Maybe I will or maybe I wont (that's the pessimistic side of me talking), only time will tell. Also beginning to establish new friends at my new office... Let's see if I could also manage to snag that drool -worthy crush of mine!

Lastly, just wanna greet you (you know who you are) a belated Happy Birthday! Even though we do not have any communication (at all) I still remembered you during that day and I don't think I'll ever forget. How could I? You made this phrase a reality for me: "Love is a hidden fire, A pleasant sore, A delicious poison, A delectable pain, An agreeable torment, A sweet and throbbing wound, A gentle death." Don't worry I meant that in a good way... So for you I dedicate this song...

Say Goodbye
by: S Club 7

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner, no regrets

Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world, I'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny (is the only way for destiny)
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me (is the only way for you and me)
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel

Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny (is the only way for destiny)
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me (is the only way for you and me)
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll missing your lovin' every day
So say goodbye
But don't you cry

Because a true love never dies

Oh my, I could actually see eyebrows rising and hear the tsking sound... I probably deserve all that but then again if you really know me you should know better. I've definitely moved on(finally!) but I could never forget the times we spent together. 'Coz no matter how painful the ending was, the moments before that was very memorable 'coz we were happy then.

ey lizzie, hope all is well with you, i agree moving forward can be rather daunting but it is all you can do if you feel trapped already and if you know you don't have a future in that certain place. whereas i was almost the same ako naman i needed to clean my slate and start over, so here we are, good luck to us :)