Wonderings of an Aimless Mind
Saturday, September 03, 2005
My Life... In General.
Yeah, when did my life start being scary? Let's take a trip down memory lane shall we...?When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun, then you grow up
and learn to be cautious; you could break a bone, or a heart. You look before
you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone
there to catch you. And in life, there is no safety net. When did it stop being
fun and start being scary?
(Sex and the City)
When I saw my cousin crying over her ex-boyfriend... I was in grade school then. Imagine the trauma of having to listen to my cousin crying and making kwento about how she's hurting over that jerk. Since then, I never got over my initial distrust over men in general.
When I decided to study in Baguio... I moved away from my parent's house and started making decisions on my own. Even thought my parent's still supported me financially, I am now responsible for everyday stuff like, "Do I get up early to go to school or do I just miss that boooring class?" or "Do I go to that party or do I stay at home to get that much needed sleep?" or "Should I cook to be able to save money or do I just eat out?".
When my Lola died... I finally realized that we cannot will somebody to live forever just so they could continue to be there for you.
When I first decided to drop a class... Uh-huh, that was a tough decision for me 'coz even though I was not a diligent student (ever) I never flunked any of my subjects and then had to explain to my parents why my grades were that low. It was then when I knew that highschool is vastly different than college.
When my then bestfriend moved to the States... That was when I felt really "alone". No more late night telephone conversations and impromptu lunches. She was the "keeper" of all my secrets and the only person I trusted.
When I fell in love... Not that I wasn't happy, I was. This was just the time when I discovered that I could never ever have total control over my life. That you sometimes needed another person to be happy.
When I had my first encounter with infidelity... Yah know, married men trying to court you. 'Coz you see, I've always believed that this stuff only happens in movies.
When I first had my heart broken... It was then I realized that giving your all does not necessarily mean that he will stay and you get to live your life happily ever after.
lizzieloves, 10:34:00 PM
2 Comments:
masaya ma-inlove... love lang ng love... pag nahanap mo na... don't let go! at oo nga pala, lagi manood ng ed, edd, and eddy!!
alam ko... masayang ma-inlove. been there, done that na po. kaya nga naghahanap na me. wala pa nga lang akong mahanp...
ngaps, sino po ba ikaw? hmmm, pero i have feeling kilala kita.
ngaps, sino po ba ikaw? hmmm, pero i have feeling kilala kita.
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