Wonderings of an Aimless Mind
Sunday, April 24, 2005
What A Day!!!
I don't wanna work... I don't like saying the spiel over and over again! I should have just called-in for this shift!!! At least I get to rest tomorrow night 'coz my leave had been approved (thank god for small miracles!). The only thing I would need to worry at this moment is our upcoming meeting for Okasyon.et.al - hope I could stay awake for the duration of that meeting. Goodluck to me then...!
Like what I have said over and over and over again --- I'm real tired!!! Physically, mentally and emotionally drained. It's like I don't even have the energy to clear my mind with all the clutter that has been going on in my life right now. I really don't wanna deal with serious stuff right now but I think I need to (in the very near future) for the sake of my well-being. All I want right now is a chance to be happy again. A chance to live my life to the fullest without any dark clouds hanging over my head.
In order to achieve what I want, I think I wold need to do some big time purging which I know would hurt big time. But then again, I'd rather face the pain now than go out my mind. You win some, you loose some right? At this point I do not know what I could loose in the process, but I've already accepted the fact that I NEED to make some changes soon. Never mind the tears that I would inadvertently shed... if all will end well in the future then that's the price I'm very much willing pay.
I've finally reached the end of the line and I don't think I can still extend that line... I have to decide now or else there won't be anything left for me to start over again. I know that starting over again is never easy but hopefully I could get through that process. Just stop this unexplainable feeling that makes it hard for me to breathe.
P.S.
It's the 24th day of the month... why can't I just forget? Maybe it would help if I could only forget...
Like what I have said over and over and over again --- I'm real tired!!! Physically, mentally and emotionally drained. It's like I don't even have the energy to clear my mind with all the clutter that has been going on in my life right now. I really don't wanna deal with serious stuff right now but I think I need to (in the very near future) for the sake of my well-being. All I want right now is a chance to be happy again. A chance to live my life to the fullest without any dark clouds hanging over my head.
In order to achieve what I want, I think I wold need to do some big time purging which I know would hurt big time. But then again, I'd rather face the pain now than go out my mind. You win some, you loose some right? At this point I do not know what I could loose in the process, but I've already accepted the fact that I NEED to make some changes soon. Never mind the tears that I would inadvertently shed... if all will end well in the future then that's the price I'm very much willing pay.
I've finally reached the end of the line and I don't think I can still extend that line... I have to decide now or else there won't be anything left for me to start over again. I know that starting over again is never easy but hopefully I could get through that process. Just stop this unexplainable feeling that makes it hard for me to breathe.
P.S.
It's the 24th day of the month... why can't I just forget? Maybe it would help if I could only forget...
lizzieloves, 3:24:00 AM
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