Wonderings of an Aimless Mind

It’s has been more than hour and we still do not have any internet connection – and in a job like ours that is equivalent to more than an hour of doing absolutely NOTHING! Since we do not have access to the net, we can’t even surf the net to check emails or even update my blog site (I’m just doing this using Microsoft Word ‘coz I’m so bored na talaga!). They say, there are still some calls that are filtering in and we just have to say that we are currently experiencing a “systems upgrade”. Oh yeah as if that would help! Some of my officemates are actually waiting for that kind of call ‘coz that could help them lower their AHT. Oh well, I’d rather not take any calls as for the moment – period!

Since I do not have anything to do, I did not even brought a book this time, I’ll just try to come up with a nice piece for my blog. Lately, I’ve been reading the sites of my friends from PS and they are really good. If ever I would have the courage to publish my profile on the web. I’ll definitely include their links so that other people could benefit from their writings. But as I’ve said before I never intended to make this blog accessible to the public, all I really want is a place where I could put some of my thoughts in writing so as to not have the burden of not being able to release these thoughts, may they be positive or negative. Basically, what I have in mind when I started this is just to develop it to be my personal online diary. By doing this journal online, I’m accepting the fact that some people may be able discover this. But that is beyond the point I’m trying to make, that is something I’m not able to control, in the field of psychology it’s called “external factor”. Okay, I’m getting lost again…This is exactly the reason why I never dreamt of becoming a writer. I never could write about one topic then focus on that topic alone. My mind always strays to some thoughts that I may have left unfinished before and is now making its presence felt. So maybe, if someone tries to take a look at my thoughts, they would find many “dead-ends” or “pathways” that seem to be leading nowhere but is in fact just thoughts that I may have not finished at the moment I started to think about them. Hmmm, does “that” thought even make any sense?

The system outage is over, it's now time to go back to work. Back to the endless anticipation of what kind of caller you're gonna get - would it be a good or bad call? I'm back to feeling a little nervous again... Now, which is much better? Doing nothing or waiting for something to happen?